I feel like there is so much to say about the last 3 months. Life has really changed...and I'm going to be honest. It is hard. We wanted to send out an email to friends and family but it seemed to get pushed back and back. So here I am. Writing about our journey and how I'm struggling to see God's plan for my family.

Most of you know that Jareb accepted a Pastor position in June '08. It was a small Southern Baptist church in Folsom (about 30 min from our house). I really thought that a year later we would be on the road to being a healthy growing church. However, God had different plans. After much prayer and long long conversations...LifeBridge Church closed it's doors in the beginning of February.

I think what has made it so hard for me was the way it ended. To know that we put a great deal of ourselves into this church and it wasn't enough. I hurt for Jareb. This was a huge step for him. And people were vicious. They say nasty lies and spread things that are just wrong. Those who we thought had our back...turned. It has been a long couple of months. We are struggling to understand what is next. Not to mention praying for a better job for Jareb...he has had to take anything because the job market sucks.

I'm sorry if this blog sounds so angry...I think I just needed to finally let it out. I know God has a plan..I just need to trust him to lead us.