Being a stepmom

Its amazing how I have really become this full fledged stepmom. If you were to ask me 3 years ago, if I thought I would be a stepmom someday..I would of told you no. Not because I wouldn't want to, but just because I didn't see it happening in my life. But that all changed when I met Jareb. I didn't just fall in love with him. I fell in love with his son. Joshua may not be my biological son, but he has captured my heart. I don't know if it was just understanding on my part or maybe just the grace of God, that has made it work out so well. I am very blessed.

The word stepmom is so ugly. I actually don't care for it all that much. I always thought step parents were the enemy. They come and make rules and try to boss the children around and take away from the relationship that the children have with the bio parent. But I can say that is not the case. I see my self as a bonus parent. Joshua has an extra parent to love him, to watch out for him, and to help him grow.

What I love best about being a stepmom is having a special bond with him. I am called Sarah, but he treats me just like I was his mom. Joshua kisses, hugs and loves to tickle me. We joke and play. We even have serious talks. Recently I have taken more of a role in disiplining. Wow, it is truely the hardest thing to do. But in the end there is a respect there that cannot be broken.

At times I am scared to death about being a parent, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.