Update!

I know it has been forever since I have blogged...and of course everyone has been on the edge of their seats waiting for me to write something! hehe Well a lot has been going on. Today I started my first job. Whew....the first day is always the hardest. Believe me, it was wonderful, exciting, and awkward all in the same moment. I'm still working for the school district but I am no longer on the playground. I now have the privilege of shadowing a 2nd grade boy, Roman. He has autism and needs extra help in class. It is going to be such a learning experience. I'm totally excited. I'll be sure to keep you all posted on mine and his progress.

Joshua has decided to participate in the local wrestling team for his age group. This is going to be a whole new avenue for me. I don't know anything about wrestling, however, Jareb is so excited. He's actually going to be able to help coach! Oh and I'm so excited... I got an great e-mail from Joshua's teacher today. He has been struggling in a certain area lately. We have tried talking to him, encouraging him, and even taking away privileges. We were really stuck trying to figure out what to do. Finally I had a conversation with his teacher and together we came up with a solution. Today she said that he had a wonderful week, last week, and that the problem seems to of been remedied!!! Not only am I happy that we found a solution... I'm so proud of Joshua that he has chosen to do the right thing!

Being a stepmom

Its amazing how I have really become this full fledged stepmom. If you were to ask me 3 years ago, if I thought I would be a stepmom someday..I would of told you no. Not because I wouldn't want to, but just because I didn't see it happening in my life. But that all changed when I met Jareb. I didn't just fall in love with him. I fell in love with his son. Joshua may not be my biological son, but he has captured my heart. I don't know if it was just understanding on my part or maybe just the grace of God, that has made it work out so well. I am very blessed.

The word stepmom is so ugly. I actually don't care for it all that much. I always thought step parents were the enemy. They come and make rules and try to boss the children around and take away from the relationship that the children have with the bio parent. But I can say that is not the case. I see my self as a bonus parent. Joshua has an extra parent to love him, to watch out for him, and to help him grow.

What I love best about being a stepmom is having a special bond with him. I am called Sarah, but he treats me just like I was his mom. Joshua kisses, hugs and loves to tickle me. We joke and play. We even have serious talks. Recently I have taken more of a role in disiplining. Wow, it is truely the hardest thing to do. But in the end there is a respect there that cannot be broken.

At times I am scared to death about being a parent, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.