Update!

I know it has been forever since I have blogged...and of course everyone has been on the edge of their seats waiting for me to write something! hehe Well a lot has been going on. Today I started my first job. Whew....the first day is always the hardest. Believe me, it was wonderful, exciting, and awkward all in the same moment. I'm still working for the school district but I am no longer on the playground. I now have the privilege of shadowing a 2nd grade boy, Roman. He has autism and needs extra help in class. It is going to be such a learning experience. I'm totally excited. I'll be sure to keep you all posted on mine and his progress.

Joshua has decided to participate in the local wrestling team for his age group. This is going to be a whole new avenue for me. I don't know anything about wrestling, however, Jareb is so excited. He's actually going to be able to help coach! Oh and I'm so excited... I got an great e-mail from Joshua's teacher today. He has been struggling in a certain area lately. We have tried talking to him, encouraging him, and even taking away privileges. We were really stuck trying to figure out what to do. Finally I had a conversation with his teacher and together we came up with a solution. Today she said that he had a wonderful week, last week, and that the problem seems to of been remedied!!! Not only am I happy that we found a solution... I'm so proud of Joshua that he has chosen to do the right thing!

Being a stepmom

Its amazing how I have really become this full fledged stepmom. If you were to ask me 3 years ago, if I thought I would be a stepmom someday..I would of told you no. Not because I wouldn't want to, but just because I didn't see it happening in my life. But that all changed when I met Jareb. I didn't just fall in love with him. I fell in love with his son. Joshua may not be my biological son, but he has captured my heart. I don't know if it was just understanding on my part or maybe just the grace of God, that has made it work out so well. I am very blessed.

The word stepmom is so ugly. I actually don't care for it all that much. I always thought step parents were the enemy. They come and make rules and try to boss the children around and take away from the relationship that the children have with the bio parent. But I can say that is not the case. I see my self as a bonus parent. Joshua has an extra parent to love him, to watch out for him, and to help him grow.

What I love best about being a stepmom is having a special bond with him. I am called Sarah, but he treats me just like I was his mom. Joshua kisses, hugs and loves to tickle me. We joke and play. We even have serious talks. Recently I have taken more of a role in disiplining. Wow, it is truely the hardest thing to do. But in the end there is a respect there that cannot be broken.

At times I am scared to death about being a parent, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Prayers Answered!!

Well most of you know that Jareb and I have been praying and praying that he would get a new job. God has answered. Jareb is now working for a new company. He helps college students fill out and file their FAFSA forms. So far it seems like a good job. Best of all, no more working nights!!! Yay! It means he gets home around dinner time, we spend some time together, and then we get to go to bed together. Its going to take some adjusting to get used to his new schedule. But we love it. God is so good. Now its just my turn. I really need to find a new job. One that I can grow in and help financially. So keep us in your prayers a little longer. Thanks!

10 Things that you may not know about me!

1. I make the bed BEFORE I get into it.
Most of the time I don't make the bed, because Jareb is usually climbing into bed as I am getting up. But I can't stand it when the sheets are all messed up. They have to be tucked in and smooth.

2. I hate spiders.
I absolutely hate spiders. The way they crawl and look. yuck!

3. I love reality shows.
Whether it is cops, biggest loser, american idol, or hells kitchen. Love them.

4. Ice Cream is amazing.
I love ice cream. Whatever flavor, its God's gift to us.

5. I can't sleep with my socks on.
Jareb teases me about it. My socks always have to come off when I'm in bed. I may start with them on, but before the night is over they are always on the floor.

6. I consider cereal to be a legitimate meal.
If I could have either cereal or ice cream for every meal I would be in heaven. My favorite cereal...well its a tie, either Lucky Charms or Honey Bunches of Oats.

7. The windows cannot be open with the air on in the car.
It drives me nuts when the AC is on and the windows are down. Your just letting the cool air out. Oh and I cannot stand it when someone leaves on their blinker after they have turned. Aaagh it drives me crazy.

8. I hate the smell of wet asphalt.
Right after it rains the blacktop has that smell to it. I hate it, I'm not sure what it is about it but I really don't like it.

9. I am a horrible speller.
Spelling is not my strong suit. Often times I will write a word 3 times 3 different ways until I find the way I think might be correct. I use the spellcheck all the time.

10. I get really excited about everything.
Exciting things really don't happen to me, but when they happen to someone else I get so excited. A friend of mine recently told us that she is pregnant. I got so excited, jumping up and down, screaming, and waving my arms...you would think I was the one who was expecting. There is a joy knowing that you can be truly excited for someone. Everyone likes to know that they have someone to share their joy with.

Growing

We have been attending this new church recently and so far so good. It is very different then the previous churches I have attended but I really like it. This past week the Pastor spoke on making the commitment to grow spiritually. He talked about how we need to take the primary role in our spiritual walk. We need to go to God, to lean on him and crave him. It really hit me. How often are we pounded with crap and we think that God is not answering our prayers or perhaps he is not letting up. It seems like this last 6 months have been the hardest of my life. Both Jareb and I feel like we are at our max. When we think we can't take anything else...something happens. Its kinda like Job in the Bible. He was tested and tested. He lost everything...and I mean everything. Satan tempted him and destroyed everything Job had. All because God knew that Job would still honor him in the end. Job stood firm in God. Perhaps that's the mindset that I should have. I'm tired of looking at everything and seeing what I don't have. I need to have faith and believe that God is going to see that I am willing to go through hell and still proclaim his name. God is testing me. He knows that I won't walk away ever again. He knows that I will praise him in any storm even if it feels way to big. I take comfort in knowing that his ways aren't my ways. I know that he has greater plans then I could ever dream of. I am way to small to take on the big stuff. I have to leave it up to God. Whether its a new job, car issues, or maybe bills. I need to believe that God is in control and he will handle it. Its just letting go that scares me the most. But isn't that what having faith is all about?

So in the end I make the Commitment to Grow Spiritually. To grow because I know things can only get better in Him.

I went for it...and blogged!

This is going to take some time getting used to. I'm not a writer and I often times feel that my life is pretty boring, but I wanted to give this a try. I've been on the computer a lot lately and thought that I could really get into this whole blogging thing. So bear with me if this isn't always updated. I hope that this will be a great experience for me to get some of my thoughts on...well not paper, but out there for others to read. Hope you enjoy it! It's my corner of the world.